oh. my. god.

all i can say is... WHAT happened?? and WHAT was i THINKING?? on a TUESDAY in NEW YORK?? on my way to work today, i checked my phone to piece together all the things that shouldn't have happened... wtf, mate? not to mention, i had to get up at 7am to go to work. how i managed that, i have no clue. i honestly cannot account for many chunks of time last night. andrei's mother is a saint. i cannot say the same for andrei. lol

and how/why did i talk to chris for like 2 hours in like a series of half a dozen calls???

i am so confused.

it was fun tho... sam's get-together. mad love for stuy kids, as always. i really shouldn't have done anything when i got home... not that i really know what those things were. i didn't even know what time i got home until i checked my cell phone this morning. what a ridiculous night.

eddie said it best. clearly all us working folks felt the same way today lol:

THE t0aster0ven: i am a mess
THE t0aster0ven: th people here think i am deranged

word up to that.

also:

THE t0aster0ven: ming, you are soo high school

obvi.

and another:

THE t0aster0ven: you and pagina both looked so chottie chot chot lastnight, btw

obvi again. i missed paige... her bf is hot, but that was expected. lol and she did look really good, with her vietnamese tan and her vietnamese garment and jewels. i'll post pics soon, hopefully. haha i kind of remember being in sam's sister's room with andrei and paige..........
ming: hey it's like a threesome
paige: (something about the door) look! privacy... no privacy. privacy, no privacy... (lol this went on for a while)

then sam came in and broke up the no-privacy-threesome. haha

i feel like i'm constantly doing damage control. i am finally starting to feel somewhat normal now... it is almost 3:30pm. wow. RIDIC.

i think tomorrow is my last day.  i'm gonna miss christina and sandra and paul and frank and will. boo. i'm really gonna miss my boss too. he's a pretty chill guy. and i looove the taffys he got me from maine. who knew you could hand-make candies? definitely not i.

Oh my, starry eyed surprise
Sun down to sun rise
Dance all night
We gonna dance all night
Dance all night to this DJ
Now sugar, dance all night to this DJ
Dance all night to this DJ
Now lover, dance all night to this DJ
A ha ha

6 12 6 25
c'est la vie.

brief update on my lack of updates. harvey was on vaca last week so i didn't have to go to work. i'm not quite sure what i did actually... running errands, mostly. i had my third wisdom tooth pulled out on friday, thus causing my left jaw to swell up like a balloon. this, clearly, does not meet abercrombie's look policy which meant i couldn't go to work on saturday. i was pretty drugged up for most of saturday anyway. although i must say, i only took painkillers on the first day after. i'm such a trooper aka masochist. haha

sunday was six flags with the stuy crew... at least the picture of us on NITRO that praveen got me will remind me that i had some fun that day. i won't get into details but let's just say six flags is nothing i remembered it to be. in fact, it's quite dirty... anyway, the day ended badly and i'll leave it at that.

i worked at a&f yesterday even tho the swelling hasn't really gone down but rather is slowly turning into a huge bruise. i really should just tell people i got punched in the jaw. whatev. so now i've officially gotten used to the august soundtrack and i've had this one song stuck in my head. it sucks because i don't know what it's called and i can't find it aaaanywhere. this is gonna be a party that will never end, when the broken hearted love again...all the angels up in heaven will descend when the broken hearted love again... it's like that everybody knows that you, you mean the world to me. everybody knows, but youuuu song.

ugh i hate being put on hold. especially with my mom's hospital because they play ridiculous commercials for themselves and yet jacobi med. ctr has absolutely nothing to be proud of. i also highly dislike being put on hold by these lunatics who work at the fed. prisons cuz they play the most annoying elevator music that loops every minute. its awful.

harvey brought me a box full of taffy from his trip to maine. i feel sick.

my jaw hurts but i'm not taking my pain meds because pain builds character.

i did some online shopping instead of reading my book for orientation today...

i sooo want that. too bad i don't have $268 to spare. well, i do but i'm gonna restrain myself. but wow... *drool* the bag, not the girl. i think it comes a little bit smaller also. i actually like the smaller one more. nona has it and i think karsh got it too. eeeeveryone has it and i want it. i want it bad. *drool* again. the littler one is $240. *sigh*

then there's the louis vuitton speedy 25. lol i used to haaate louis vuitton, like i actually found their signature color disgusting. but speedy 25... i love, i love.

i actually still hate handbags with the brand initialed all over it. like, i used to have a fetish for coach bags and now i can't find any of them attractive. but also, too many people have coach bags. not that speedys are rare, they're def not. but they're sooo cute. wow, i officially suck.

ok my superficial moment of the day is over. back to reality, which is no place for luxury handbags. yet.

nan: "life is like a penis. when it gets hard, just fuck it."

classic.

c'est la vie, life goes on, etc. etc.

you don't know how to break my heart.

yay for surveys! i haven't done one of these in AGES.

YOU.
Nicknames: mingaling, shming, mingy, etc.
B-day: Sept 10 (it's a saturday this year! come party with your fav partygirl)
Age: almost 19
Sex: female. yes, i'm a girl.
Where do you live: kilgo
Siblings: no
Pets: no
Zodiac Sign: : virgo
Righty or Lefty: righty, but i only brush my teeth with my left hand.

Your looks
Hair color: black but i have natural highlights sometimes?
Eye color: dark brown-ish
Do u wear contacts or glasses: contacts
Do you have any piercing: just my ears
Where do you want it to be, if you want more?: belly button because that's hot
Do you have a tattoo: no
If so what and where: small of my back, but only if i can get epidural during labor. lol i gotta read into that. if not, probably on my back by the shoulders?
Do you wear any rings: no
Do you have a certain fashion you follow: a&f, lol jk. not really...

Just lately...
How are you today: bored out of my mind. actually.
What does your hair look like at the moment: down, straight
What song are u listening to right now: n/a, just the monotone of the a/c in the office
What was the last thing u ate: chewy runts!!
How is the weather right now: hot and humid outside. nice and cool inside.
Who was the last person you talked to on the phone? i dont talk on the phone anymore.
Last Dream you can remember: lol i was asleep on the train... it was quite a vivid dream actually but i don't remember it. it was good tho.
Who are you talking to right now: whoever's online

MoRe AbOuT yOu
ever almost died: yes!
How do u eat an Oreo: in icecream. not a fan of oreos by themselves
What makes you happy: my boyfriend until 3 weeks ago. good food and good company. laughing with my girls. new york city.
What's the best advice ever given to you: don't make enemies. it's not worth it.
Have u ever won any special award: sure i guess... $25 for the 4th prize in the Baseball Tivy Competition at Yankee Stadium. i rocked 4th grade.
What are your future goals?: to be successful, fall in love, live life to the fullest, all that jazz.   
Do u like to dance: hah do i ever! 
Worst sickness you've ever had: pneumonia when i was 6ish.
What's the stupidest thing you've ever done?: can't name them all. i can probably name the one that wins the prize.

What's your favorite memory: crying when my daddy came to pick me up from school. birthday dinners with the girls. christmas in new york. afternoon naps at duke, even tho naps always throw me off schedule. stuy cast parties. just being with the people i love.

If u could change one thing about yourself what would it be?: just one? haha... i'd like to procrastinate less, be less psycho/crazy with emotions, etc. i don't know. i don't like thinking about what i'd change because people don't change.
Son's name: jake, spencer
Daughter's name: ashley, madison 
Do you do drugs: no. i like being as sane as possible.
Do you drink: this is a joke, right?
What kind of shampoo and conditioner do you use: pantene, dove. i'm not a fan of herbal essenses anymore
What sport do you hate the most: all the ones that i don't understand. i was about to say football because the tailgates are funner.
What are you most scared of: rejection, failure.
How many TV's do you have in your house: 5? a lot
Do you sleep with a stuffed animal: yes, my x-mas teddy bear
Who do you tell your dreams to? whoever wants to know
Who's the loudest friend you have: lisa/carla/becca
Who's the quietest friend?: yang fo sho.

Is Cheerleading a sport?: in all seriousness, yes.

YoU aNd LoVe
Do you believe in Love: sure why not
Do you have a girlfriend or boyfriend:  no
Do you believe in Love at first sight: i believe in infatuation a first sight, does that count?

Where would you like to go on your honeymoon: somewhere romantic and exotic. turtle island or tahiti. hawaii is too cliche. 
What song do you want played at your wedding: all of them.
Longest crush: 2 years? 
Are you shy to ask someone out: it's the guy's job to ask a girl out. see above, i'm scared of rejection.
Do others find you attractive: construction workers and mexicans (among other random men on the street) do at times.

ThIs Or ThAt?
Lights on/off: on, but dim.
Sun or rain: sunshowers!
Mickey D's or BK: just say no to fastfood.
scary or happy movies: romantic comedies all the way
Backstreet Boys or NSYNC: both!
On the phone or in person: in person
Summer or winter: summer, or xmas in new york
Hugs or kisses: can i have both? probably kisses.
Chocolate or white milk: i don't like milk 
Root Beer or Dr. Pepper: diet dr. pepper
CD or Tape: iPod

Cats or Dogs: puppies
Vanilla or Chocolate: Vanilla
Skiing or Boarding: iceskating
Cake or pie: cake
Diamond or pearl: both. lol diamonds are a girl's best friend
sunset or sunrise: sunset

FaVoUrItEs
Color: green (and pink, obvi)
Fast Food: n/a. chinese?
Candy: chewy runts!!!
Sport: duke basketball, fo sho.
song: too many. right now i'm in the mood for "don't turn around" ace of base.
#: 3
Actor or Actress: scarlet johanson? johnny depp? i dont know.
show: friends, def. i watch gilmore girls with my mom all the time. it's cute. you can learn a lot from sex and the city. OC is nice too.

EvEr
Loved someone so much it makes you cry: yes
Drank: again, is this a joke?
Broken the law: sure! all the time.
Ran from the cops: yes. lol oh off campus parties.
Stole something: probably candy from the store.

this wasn't entertaining.

Currently Listening Ace Of Base - Greatest Hits By Ace of Base see related

i really am tres bored. y tu? i just realized that since i'm not working next week, i can go to the gym for like, forever every single day!! i'm so excited.

yi passed her driving test! 4th time's the charm, babe. congrats!! lol xoxo

i'm talking to naushad again. poor baby. girls can be so so cruel sometimes. but it always ends up for the better, it really does. and then we're pretty and precious once again. yay  but getting to that point can be tres torturous, i know. girls can make you want to be like this.  

you know the new IM smilies that elena and naushad (among others) have? it's like a child drew it or something. but naushad keeps using the sad ones to describe his current girl problems and the smileys themselves kill me as they are, let alone his actual problems. in a sense, i know them much too well. and seeing it from another point of view really makes me hate girls. lol.

RoofReza: im goign to be like clinically depressed next semester
citygirl910: don't do that
RoofReza: i dont feel like doing anything
RoofReza: i keep having ddreams about her
citygirl910: that's the worst feeling ever
citygirl910: aww
citygirl910: tres romantic
RoofReza: tres depressing
citygirl910: tres true :-\

but hey, think on the bright side. worse things have happened! like, poverty. and cholera.

i am eating runts like they are the fuel that brings life to my soul. what is going on? at least they're the chewy ones today! mmm chewy.

chris didn't appreciate my comment about his undying love for video games. however, i wish not to take back that statement because it is the truth and the people deserve to know the truth.

RoofReza: oh man
RoofReza: i am going to miss spooning and naps in the afternoon so much
RoofReza: soooo much
citygirl910: dude. depression is contageous. keep it to yourself
RoofReza: yeah
citygirl910: boo we're so sad
RoofReza: i know!

what becomes of the broken-hearted?

 = sad. i was sooo looking forward to orientation week too. probably ever since i found out i was a FAC. who knew chris and i were looking forward to orientation for very different reasons. get 'em while they're skinny, honey. but just remember: i'm skinnier. and prettier. and crazier. and you know what i mean.  

betcha gonna miss me once i'm gone. wish you didn't have to. oh well... c'est la vie.  = bittersweet.

i love jakenna dearly but this did not help haha:
JaKenna5: mingaling
citygirl910: hey!!!!
citygirl910: i am tres bored
citygirl910: save me
JaKenna5: whats up!
JaKenna5: me too!
JaKenna5: im actually in the library waiting for chris to finish a test
JaKenna5: lol
JaKenna5: lol, well he jsut got here!  ill talk to you soon!
JaKenna5: i miss ya and love ya!

i wonder what she's gonna go do now ... these kids are crez.

i really think people get what they deserve. you get what you give, you know? it's true for relationships, personal success, and all that kinda jazz. i'm a strict believer of karma.. and that my great-grandparents have been reincarnated as cockaroaches. but mostly karma. everything you do comes back to you at some point down the line. no one gets it that much easier than anyone else.

OMG this is a disaster!! I HAVE NO MORE RUNTS!!! and it's only 12:30!! my soul is slowly melting away. i can feel it. i really can.

maybe i'll just get an arranged marriage. that way, when we have fights, i can always blame it on my parents. now, what can be better than that?? i've spent my whole life blaming all my miseries on my parents. plus, there's a greater chance for an arranged marriage to work out. it's like a win-win situation. wow, i should really bring that up with my mom ... she probably already has some nice/smart/well-mannered/respectful/mature/responsible/funny/successful/motivated young chinese boys lined up. score.  

haha we have a family friend who (according her daughter) had hoped that i would get together with her son. but now he has a steady gf and the possibility is growing slimmer. not that it was much of a possibility to begin with... we grew up together and he was always the big-brother type anyway. it was just this one convo i had with the mom which was priceless. lol i won't go into details.

RoofReza: it might not be such a bad idea
citygirl910: uh huh
RoofReza: plus like im a us citizen, 5 feet 11 inches, good teeth, nice skin, pretty smart, i mean i can fetch a bengali super model
RoofReza: emphasis on us citizen
citygirl910: LOL
RoofReza: i always wanted a super model wife
RoofReza: sigh
citygirl910: haha there's a guy in leo/andrei/charles's frat
citygirl910: who's like 19 and married a 23 yearold model from some eastern european country
RoofReza: hahaha
citygirl910: czech rep i think

i'm not so sure about an asian supermodel husband though. i mean... yeah, no.

i think i'm gonna go listen to some ace of base and read some gabriel garcia marquez.

alex says that the kappas at cornell are called visa visa mastercard. once someone said "because they're everywhere you want to be?" no... but i bet that's true too.

i'm being a huge fatty and eating many meals each day (3 already today. expecting 2 more). now i'm eating runts. RUNTS! which, by the way, can also be found under the general categories of candy, willy wonka, sugar, and THINGS TO EAT TO GET FAT. mm sweeet. i would like to believe that i deserved this little treat. i mean, i did run around the city looking for white legal pads after all. i went to 4 staples before i found the right kind. ugh, they can be so unhelpful, these office megastores. along the way, however, i did get some back-to-school shopping done. they're selling five star notebooks for 88 cents! why, that's a deal if i ever saw one! sooo i bought 4.  i also bought elmer's glue for 15 cents and some marker pens which will be free after the rebate. wow, i'm so cool. to be honest, i actually do have a fetish for school supplies. i just don't like using them...

on a side note (and back to the subject of food/being fat/the entire category of body image) regardless of my new habit of eating like i did last summer, i'm still "3 pounds away from lindsay lohan" well, what do you know... i'm supergirl.

i had a really nice conversation with naushad today. it was unexpected, but quite nice. it seems like relationships, or the lack there of... or just the broader category of the uncertainty of life, is driving many people nuts. i like referring to things in categories. don't know why... we came to the conclusion that a) guys and girls our age do stupid stupid things b) men are territorial c) at any given time in a relationship, one person always loves the other more... among other things.

my tongue hurts from eating runts.

sandra brought back munchies from lunch. i am now 4 donut holes fatter than i was a half hour ago.

now to jump back to something that i left off on yesterday... i've figured out the process with which guys with no shame check out girls on the street. it's rather pathetic actually. they first see you from about 15-20 feet away, looking straight at eye level. then you catch their eye and they follow you as you two walk closer toward each other. that's when their eyes start moving down, stopping momentarily to make a conscious note of what they like to see, and ending at your feet. as you keep walking towards and eventually past each other, they keep staring at your feet and following it as you pass them. at which point, they turn around and their line of vision start moving back up to you know where. but as for me, i like to turn around and stare back just to make it a little more awkward. cuz honey, this show ain't for free.

wow i am so bored. sooooo bored. this has been a rather shallow xanga entry. nothing exciting ever happens anymore. chris is on an anti-ming crusade. lol well, i think so at least. it's just depressing to know that a girl can be replaced by video games. what is this world coming to? i join the mothers-of-america-with-nothing-to-do-except-rally-against-the-makers-of-inappropriate-video-games. they really should stop making those sad excuses of a hobby. with $50, you can go out and buy yourself a nice top or a not so nice pair of pants.

i need to read a book or something. my mom is going to scarsdale again tonight.  boo.

my boss left like a half hour ago. but he didn't say if i can go home. i guess i'll bum around til 6... it couldn't hurt.

i went to the bank this morning. deposited $609. nice.

i think it's rather sad that i waste most of time waiting for the phone to ring, knowing that no one knows my new number and yet hoping someone would call. i'm so pathetic. i want to move on with my life, and yet i'm so scared at the same time. the last thing i want to is to move on and wish i hadn't. so now i'm stuck in limbo, not knowing what to do and not getting any hints as to what i should do. my life sucks. chances are, even if i knew what i wanted it, i probably wouldn't be able to follow through with it anyway. i'm so fucked up. really, i am.

everything is so inconsiquential. nothing matters. period.

that's it for now. the firm is getting a new intern. there're like cocaroaches. haha AND they don't get paid. tsk tsk. i had it so good last summer. not.

i'm out like a fat boy in dodgeball. make me happy and entertain my life. but if you don't, i'll understand.